3 days counting from today will marked the end of my first semester of my sophomore year in college. Boiiii. Wow. It’s bitter sweet. The sweet part is that will be able to start the next semester new and fresh. The bitter part is the uncertainly of the grade I will be making for classes this semester. I have to say that the performance is certainly not my best, but failure will truly be a failure if they aren’t learned. Ummm, I don’t know if this saying is true, or does it simply meant to make me feel a little better about the disappointment, to make a negative experience seems a little positive. Oh well, it works, at least I can think positively and improve…h-o-p-e-f-u-l-l-y. Anyway, I have been making a 4.0 since the beginning of college, and I am a tiny bit worry (I try not to worry as God has a plan for me and tomorrow has the worry in itself and I should not be focusing on the now as much as I do for the eternal) because I still have a chance to make an A in genetics if I score an A on this final, which if the “what ifs…” stuff kept creeping into my thought then I probably won’t be doing as well. Ugh. Just do your best and don’t add the worries because it is not helping that much. Just try your best. Try your best. Anyway, this genetics class, I enjoy more of it now than in the beginning of the class, for sure. It was a doable sort of class for me to make an A in, since the beginning. What was holding me back then was absolutely very little except ME. It was doable, I know I can make an A in this class. Not that genetics isn’t difficult, it certainly can be, if I didn’t study. I was a sloth back then, not alert and wasn’t serious on my studying and understanding the material enough. Anyway, it wasn’t like AP physics (in high school) where I didn’t really understand, genetics is something I can see myself understanding, making sense of it, and seeing the relevant. Boiii, is the expression I can say to myself now. Boiii, why didn’t you do it, sort of expression.
In reality, I still have a chance of making an A in genetics and in general chemistry. I’m writing this post on Sunday night at around 10:30 p.m. I will take a stats final tomorrow (Monday), gen chem on Tuesday, and genetics on Wednesday, and after that is the “Winter Break Begins,” dashing through the snow~
It will be dashing through the ditch, if I were to have the self doubt moment that in the back of my head and sort of unconsciously, not willing to try and do my best then, I might be for real, may not like how I end this semester.
This is such a MIND Game, it is also how I make the decision, THINK, and ACT upon.
Let’s do the best that you can and we’ll see how it’s going to be finished. I hope to hear a good news. Help me, Lord.