Well, relationship is crazy when you make it. Hey, honestly, I learned and it is okay. At least I learned a lot about myself. I do. I learned about how selfish I am when it comes to having a relationship with someone. I also learned that I am needy and have high expectation. But then, from now on I am not going to dwell. It is the feeling I have when I ran a mile. I wanted to complete the task I set my mind to, but it was so hard and I am weak. I tried and it is painful to keep going, but I know that I wanted to keep going.
Now this guy, I know I like him and being the selfish person that I am. I expected his love as well. I don’t know how this is going still, but I know that I am going to learn how to love someone this time. I am going to. I will try my best.
I will be strong-er. If there is not something I learned from this relationship, well, then there is no point. At the very least, I ought to be strong, to stand on my two feet. God would like for me to be strong as well. There is no point to being sad and perhaps this is what college are suppose to teach me. The experiences. There is no point in worrying if there is someone else out there or not. Make today the best you can. You don’t hav to focus too much on the future, just make today the best that you can.
Get rid of all the expectations. Do the best you can. Be the better version of yourself. Learn from the mistakes, but not dwell on it.
Also, unlike your parents’ love, which has already been given and even bigger is God’s love. Relationship that I am going to have with someone right now, I am NOT going to expect unless I have done all I could.