So, finally, after quite some time of deliberating what to do, I finally did it. I sort of faced my fear. I know for sure that I still, in fact, like him, because I cannot stop thinking about him. It is hard for me to admit it, but it’s true. So what I did was I asked to meet up. He showed up and I can’t contain myself but had to tell him that. There is perhaps some part of me that is still withholding some of the things I am feeling, but at least I am facing something unknown. I try to think positive and to not worry. I still strongly believe that a relationship is suppose to help you grow. Therefore, it is healthy.
The last thing I want is to not worry him about stuff. It would break my heart to know that I am doing that. Hopefully, thing can simply be casual and natural. Do not settle is the word that will be my motto.
I wish this friendship the best if I think of him as a friend then, it’s much easier for me because I do expect a lot of things. Therefore, we should take it slow like really slow.
How do I feel about him? I like him. He’s interesting, can be weird sometimes, but overall interesting. He is nice, however, I really wanted to take it slow. I will not rush into anything. This is something to definitely be aware.
Dear God, I wanted this relationship to be focus on you, even though, he is not there with me. Regardless of such, I know where my eyes should be focusing. I must focus only on you. Help me God. I prayed for self-control and intersection with him with a lot of people.