Man, when am I going to stop holding on. It has now been close to 3 months and I still feel it a little bit. Perhaps looking at the clock will simply makes the process feels longer. What I need to do is to pay attention to the class. Distract myself instead of looking at the clock. It’s not like I genuinely knew what I want anyway. I definitely didn’t like something about him. Anger, impatience, aggressiveness, negative view on people and certain outlook in life. It’s just abnormal. There are good things like perhaps being on time. Wait, more negative on unopenmindedness, that’s not a word but you get the point, and low self esteem basically can be like a weakling at times oh and sensitivity. There are more cons and than pros and even if I like his appearance, it just doesn’t makes sense for me to be with him because the negatives are not justifiable to the positives. It’s not easy, but at least I’m choosing what’s best for me.
Would I still want to be his friend, probably. I did tell him that before our break up that I would be his friend. Seems like I’m not carrying out my word, but that’s because I still hold grudges. I still didn’t forgive him for what he did. It’s not