Back at it again with the vent

So I got this stomach crap again. No, bot diarrhea or a period cramp. It’s called a missing someone stomach symptoms. Man, I truly miss him. I don’t know what is the cause anymore. I don’t. It’s so weird to me. I don’t know what is going on. Like I miss him, but at the same time I know he is not good for me. That would have a hard time being with him anyway. There are so many conflicting ideas. It is this painful, missing someone feelings. How long is this going to last, I am not sure. I don’t know if I am actually missing him. Missing being in a relationship. Missing I don’t know what. Missing the missing piece. It has almost been 3 months and I am still missing crap. Like this is insane. Do I need to learn the hard way. What is it? What is this? What am I doing? No one like him. Why do I still want to see him? What the heck is going on? And why can’t I just forget about him? Do I need to get my hands cut and burn for me to learn? It is frustrating. Extremely frustrating, how one person who is not worth or is good for me could effect me at an emotional level. This is insane. Absolutely crazy. I put in so much energy into this that it made me tired. I just wanted to cry again. Why is this not repairing.

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