So I got this stomach crap again. No, bot diarrhea or a period cramp. It’s called a missing someone stomach symptoms. Man, I truly miss him. I don’t know what is the cause anymore. I don’t. It’s so weird to me. I don’t know what is going on. Like I miss him, but at the same time I know he is not good for me. That would have a hard time being with him anyway. There are so many conflicting ideas. It is this painful, missing someone feelings. How long is this going to last, I am not sure. I don’t know if I am actually missing him. Missing being in a relationship. Missing I don’t know what. Missing the missing piece. It has almost been 3 months and I am still missing crap. Like this is insane. Do I need to learn the hard way. What is it? What is this? What am I doing? No one like him. Why do I still want to see him? What the heck is going on? And why can’t I just forget about him? Do I need to get my hands cut and burn for me to learn? It is frustrating. Extremely frustrating, how one person who is not worth or is good for me could effect me at an emotional level. This is insane. Absolutely crazy. I put in so much energy into this that it made me tired. I just wanted to cry again. Why is this not repairing.
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I am pursuing a bachelor degree at Texas Tech University. I am majoring in General Studies on a Pre-Medical track. I want to be a surgeon. I started this blog my sophomore year of college in my dorm's laundry room while machines were running loudly, however, I was still able to focus on what's important--starting my first ever blogging experience. I was reading an article about how students can often get stuck in college life while becoming oblivious to what's going on outside or once they graduated. I want this blog to be a mean of investment, but it has turned to be something so much more. It has become my personal, 22 dollars annually therapist sessions. It has become my supportive-best friend. I am interested in sharing my experiences (brokenness, happiness) as well as connecting with you. Hopefully, my site and stories can benefit you. I hope that my experiences (heart breaks, boys' problems, disappointments) reach you. I prayed that through hard times, we're still hopeful, knowing that we serve an unchangeable, constant, never-ever-changing God of the universe. I hope that my experiences and honesty can touch, reach, and love you. It is through this brokenness that makes me excited to live and keep going. My uttermost importance in life is to live a meaningful life full of growth. No matter which allies I get lost in, I know I will eventually find the hill. I live for the sole purpose of growth, until I die. People can say I'm delusional or whatever, I don't care. I know I am living my LIFE. It's MY LIFE and I am the protagonist of my story. No one is going to write it for me. I always wanted to travel. I hope to be able to do that in the future. I have this passion to help the sick (mentally and physically) and to help them redeem their life once more--to give them a chance to live a better life and to make a better decision. To give them a chance to love themself better just like God has given me uncountable chance to live again, again, and again, and again. I don't want to just live life, I want to LIVE LIFE. I want to experience it all. View all posts by MyPitching.Blog