Trust in God

I am really tempted to text my ex as I was learning about biochemistry and this instances reminded me of when he used to quizzed me about these scientific knowledge. I missed it so much, it is this aching feeling of really missing someone as if I were to see him, I would literally throw a big hug I could possibly could on him that is how much I missed him right now at this moment. I miss him to the point where I could cry, it is this longing feeling for someone I honestly had never had. Perhaps I have felt it with my family, but no one bedside my family did I had this strong feeling for missing for.

Even though I miss him so much. Feelings are not fact. I will not interfere with God’s plan . I am not going to be tempted by mere feelings that comes and goes after breakup. God is what I need and I trust in his plan for me, to protect me and give the best thing for me. Even though I have this strong feelings for someone, still I chose God before him. I chose God’s will for me. And I will not interfere with his plan. I will continue to trust in God even though it is really hard at the moment because I know that faith is my ultimate decision. It is my choice that I choose God and not to sin. He has given me life, hope, and dreams. I trust what He promised me. I will not rely on my feelings or decisions, but only His and His alone. Gods is my ultimate everything. He is my Abba.

Dear Jesus,

You have died on the crossed to give me new life. A life free of chains, grudges, resentment, and sins. You have lifted me up with your love, kindness, and goodness. I will continue to trust in your power that I cannot compete, not even close. I know you’re bigger and more powerful than anything I could ever hope for. You are my ultimate maker, creator, and pursuer. You are all that I need and my trust is in you. Jesus, I chose you and all the glory goes to you. May you use me to be your vessel in bringing others to you, Lord. May you reveal my hidden sins that I still have to me, for me to recognize them and to want to change– to be more like you. You are unchangeable, indestructible, and your love covers me. May I continue to grow more and more into you, my Lord that no matter what comes my way that you are with me always. I choose you and always will. May I choose you still even when I am being tempted from sins. May I listen to the Holy Spirit and may the Holy Spirit rescued me from the sins I was tempted to commit. May I live my life for your glory alone. May everything in my life centered around you, Lord. May I love, have compassion towards other, Lord. Please teach me to forgive, love, and be kind to others. I prayed that I would understand humility and humbleness. I prayed that I would out other before myself. I prayed that I would learn to be selfless each and everyday. I prayed that I would learn about pride. I prayed that I understand more about pride and humbleness.

I prayed that my relationship with my family–especially my sister, my dad, and my mom would be a result of how I have begin growing with you that they would see the fruit of the sprit. For these are the people closest to me. I prayed, Lord that I will learn to love them more and more and more.

I prayed that Chad would get to experience the love you gave rescued me from sins and giving me a life that has you. I prayed that Chad would come to you. I prayed that I will learn to forgive him and to love him. I pray that I would be able to let go of the resentment and grudges I felt towards him. That I would released them and forgive just as you have forgive me for my sins.

Teach me to trust and have faith in you more and more, oh God even when things seem unfair, uncalled for, and deadly that I would learn to continually trust in you.

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