Learning to be happy and full on my own is a must. I’m trying. It is absolutely untrue that in order to be happy, you must be in relationship. Sure, relationship can certainly make you happy. May be a lot. But it doesn’t have to be that way. There is a way to still be happy and that is through Jesus Christ. I’m lacking in this aspect. I must need him more and asking him to fulfill my empty soul. A not so joyful soul.
Life is short. I don’t want to wasted on memories. But I wanted to let it be wasted on making new ones. It’s absolutely critical that I living my life. Listening to good musics. Go on an adventure. Do fun things. Don’t wasted on disappointments. Cry if it makes you feel better but only do it if it’s going to make you feel better to get back up.
My mom’s so funny. She worried if I’m going to have depression. There are different types of depressive disorders. One being the most common form is call major depressive disorder (MDD) or clinical depression and another called persistent depressive disorder (PDD). Both are undesirable, but if you have PDD, you don’t even know if you have it, because you’re always feeling depressed. That’s scary. MDD patient are likely to be in the baseline if they’re not experiencing bouts of depression. I hope I don’t have either of disorders. It’s scary.
The symptoms of depressions are:
-little or excessive sleep
-lost of motivation
-little or excessive eating
I don’t know, I don’t want it. Hopefully, I can get back to my normal self very very soon.