It has been awhile pt.1

So Yeah, it has been a while since the last time I write something.

Something inspired me to write again. No, I’m not ranting because I am going through a hard time. Things have been going good. I slowly found myself again, which is always good. I will keep finding myself. The person I am, embrace it.

There is honestly nothing more fun than hanging out with friends. Like legit, it is fun to have fun with friends. This is not underrated. Not everyone is the same, but I honestly do not understand how someone could be alone and will not reach out to anyone. Of course, I am not them and I am trying to empathetic. But anyhow, I am glad I can find people I like hang out with. It is a blessing and I am thankful.

I hope to keep on building friendship with people. It is great.

Anyhow I am glad that I get to reflect on my thought today.

Anyway, I met someone, not like what you think, but someone invited me to coffee!

Not going to lie, I would say yes for that. Now that I know that I dislike dinner date and movie date. Both is a no no. Big time. So it was a good choice in him to ask me for coffee, I would say yes.

I do not want to limit myself. That would be a bad learning experience. Of course, it would be a bit uncomfortable in a sense that I would not know how it would go down. Regardless I think it is amazing I get this opportunity. How it will turn out I don’t know, but it would be a good experience.

First of I know that it would be awhile for me to settle down with anyone. I am quite certain about that. I do not think anything could truly stop me from having fun and enjoying getting to know people. So asking me to settle down or be someone girlfriend, right now is a no. Most likely. Because 1) I have an ideal about how relationship is suppose to be, and most people would not be able to meet that I assume. It is not crazy or anything, but I feel like most guys nowadays or at least the one I have met are not going to have the same ideal as me. That’s why it important to talk and see where they stand. What they like? Who are they really as a person. Hopefully I could pay enough attention and listen for answer, which I will try.

A guy who cannot communicate is a no like my life is already complicated, I do not want additional complication and especially when things are going good right now with everything. I am enjoying my life. I know that I am independent, but still like to have fun and socialize with people. Having good company with good conversation is something I enjoy, no matter where that takes me.

So I like someone honest, open to deep talk. Someone I can connect with on emotional level. Without it, probably won’t last.

In the past I did not really know what I was looking for per se. I also tend to be with a guy who is the opposite from me :/ And the one that I do get along with, I just did not like them.

Anyway, dating or being in a relationship is not my priority. I enjoy getting to know you first. Be your “friend.” So, I will still have fun, yet be intentional about it. I have my list so I know them. I will not judge book by cover. I will try to read and see if it is the book I would buy. Because I think I know what I want.

If I were to go on a date, it will not be more than 1 hr. that will be a max. No matter what.  I will listen more. I will ask question sometimes. Even though I would be tempted to talk. I will be honest and real because otherwise I cheating someone and myself. I like the idea of a coffee, I do not mind that at all.

We will see what happens, I will be myself but within bound 🙂

The other day I was going to reflect on something I thought of writing, but of course, now, I forgot what I had plan to write. Bummer. What was it though.

 

Also, another advice I would give to myself is to be focus and not waste time having fun on something that is not. As simple as that. Not only is it not it, but since you do know what you want, then don’t waste time on the thing you know will not work. Learn from your mistake.

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