Isn’t life full of surprises
Life is full of surprises. There are ups and downs. Sometimes, mostly down. Sometimes mostly up. Break up is hard. Family issue is hard. Work is hard. Pressure is hard. My heart beats fast. My voice hurts. Life has ups and downs. Sometimes there is ups. Sometimes there is down. I don’t know if life with no difficulty would be life at all. Life is full of tastes. I never get it right. Something goes wrong. I cry. I scream. I cry. And cry and cry and cry again. People let you down no matter what. They always will. Your loved ones. Your exes. All kinds and probably myself too. Maybe I’m the cause of it all. Maybe I am the one who’s at wronged at handling it. I don’t know what else to do. I’m not in control. I’m anguish. I’m hot (temperature and feeling). I have a wall up. Life has many tastes and flavors. If there is only sweet then how would I know about the other flavors. People will always let me down. Maybe this is pessimism. People probably will be a let down because, just like myself, they are not perfect. They really are not perfect and so am I. Even though I tried, I am still not. How am I going to fix this? I’m sad knowing that more than likely I can’t fix others or the circumstances. I can only fix my eyes and thoughts on God the Almighty. I thought I have it all right. I thought I pretty much figured it out. The truth is there is always going to be challenge to test my endurance. It’s like playing games at the next, next, and next level. It is life a game that always has another different levels. Life is too short to be unhappy. There is still beautiful and good. I know I have a weak spot for certain things. I know I have high expectations. And this would make me be single forever. I tired of feeling for someone I love. Feeling them disappoint me. Feeling them being less than cleaver. I honestly just wanted to live in peace and with sense of ease. I didn’t want to feel everything all the time. I know God’s always is in control and even the mist of the ugliest scenarios, He’s Still God.