Skate and Friend are FUN

Since I was young, about 6 or 7 years of age, I remembered enjoying rollerskating around the house. It was fun, fast, and required balance.

Today, I went to skate with my sister, who does not really wanted to skate, but she was willing to along side with me. She knows how much I enjoy skating for fun.

The feeling of moving the legs, the farther the feet push against the ground, the faster I move. The feeling of the air brushing through my face. The tightened of my calves in order to move forward and my arms going back and forth to achieve the desire balance, speed, and position. The experience was grand!

Last time I was skating, I got to meet a group of boys that skated really well! They were smooth, fast, and furious (like the title of a movie, Fast and Furious). They made skating looks easy and appealing. They could skate backward and done interesting tricks. They absolutely love to stop abruptly to startle their friends and also love to play tag, you’re it!

So I got a hold of one of the boys in the group, after realizing that he was not a boy, but a young adult because he was three years older than I was. I asked him if he could teach me how to skate backward. He sort of trying to teach me how to do so, but it was actually a 7 years old boy, who could skate so well, that taught and offered me tricks on how to skate backward. He and his dad participated, but I did not achieve the move fully, but was beginning to learn so. It was a good start to my new skating-moves. I would have to say that I had actually improved my backward skating move today. I was sort of understanding about the move, but what I learned today was not to think too deeply about the motion because it made me moved stiffly, but rather to simply not look at my feet and as Nike says, “Just Do It.” So that was what I did, I just do it and the result was better! If I had a chance to skate again, I definitely wanted to improve my speed; I wanted to skate backward faster, because it is where the fun behold! I also will wear something more comfortable. I was wearing a thermal legging underneath my jeans and it was absolutely not the most comfortable to skate wearing such. I preferred wearing a good knee pads, gym shorts, and sport t-shirt while skating.

One highlight of the day was that I met a little girl named Angel and her mom, who has a nickname called Red. Red told me that she did not like the color red even though, some people called her so. I don’t remember how she acquired the name, Red, but it was certainly an interesting name. Angle, on the other hand, is as sweet and nice as her name suggested. She was friendly and helpful as she was trying to make sure I would not fall, even though, she had fallen more than three times herself, while I only fallen once. Oh, little Angel. She was so talkative and gave my sister and I a group hug before Skate World closes.

Another interesting occasion also happened at Skate World today. Even before the winter break started, I had applied to numerous jobs to work at my hometown. I applied for opening positions at a nearby groceries store, fast food restaurants, and to be a barista. I have not hear back from most of them, but for the ones that I wanted to work for such as a job to be a barista and a bagger at a grocery store, I was rejected on all of the positions at a groceries store and I think that I probably will not be getting a job as a barista either, considering the fact that I will only be working for two weeks if hired. The employers highly do not wanted to train someone who only will be working for two weeks!😆 So I think, this reasons heavily influenced why I was not offered a job 😓.

But guessed what! It is also likely that I will be getting a job soon because I went to Skate World today, not planing on getting a job there, but asked two of the employees who worked there, whether they are hiring tight now and both said, “Yes,” so I called the manager, gave him a genuine smile, and asked if he was hiring and he said the same thing and both employees told me. I told him about the 2 weeks working time frame and he was about to give me the results that other employers had previously told me, but I talked my way through until he told me to meet him tomorrow after 2 in the afternoon, and that’s when I knew, I could be getting a two week winter break job like I had hoped.

The only thing right now that would be holding me back from getting the soon to be, hopefully, funnest job I ever will have is that I might not be able to spend time with my lovely little sister, Gift. I love her so much. She makes me laugh. I can probably say that she is my best friend. I thank God for strengthen our relationship because we are getting closer to each other because of his blessings. Anyway, if I were to get this job, which hopefully will allows for me to skate as I had wanted because it is a job we are talking about here ultimately. The main reason why I was interested in the job primarily was that I could skate more; however, it might be such case. But, yeah, if I were to get this job, it would also mean that I will not spend much time with my sister or my dad. There are something that money cannot buy such as time and love. I will ask for God guidance, but I also feel like I sort of already knew the answer and I think that if I were to ask my dad, he would also tell me that it is okay not to work. My sister, on the opposite end, might supports my decision, but I can also see that she did not really want me to work either because she like having me around. It seems to me, right now, that I might not be able to have this job after all and it is not a guarantee that this job will allows for me to skate more either. I will probably be assisting customers and not skating as I wish. 🤔 So yeah.. too bad so sad, no spending money for this winter break. 😤

Before I went to Skate World, I also met up with my good high school friend, Tooba. We chatted at Starbucks, even though she arrived approximately 40 minutes late for our date. I was sort of a little frustrated at the time and considered leaving as I waited for her. I texted her wanting to say something intended to sound unappreciated about the situation, but I did not, because I thought about Jesus. I knew in my heart that Jesus will wanted me to turn the other cheeks. He reminded me of my own mistakes because I had been late in the past as well. He reminded me that we are not perfect, so when we met I greeted her with a hug. She apologized and I can saw how that she was sorry, so I dismissed the mistake. Tooba handed me a gift that she brought with her to  give to me. I was touched and was so glad that I decided on not leaving because that would affected our friendship and great conversations that we were to have. Before, I met Tooba, I had prayed that the Lord would lead the conversations and that he would allow me to be selfless and to have a nice, intimate conversations, that they would flow well, and the Lord saw that the requests were good, so he granted me a great time with my friend, Tooba amongst the aroma of coffee, people waiting for their drink at Starbucks. We had such a great time that I wanted to hangout some more, but we eventually went home because I did not want the drinks that her brother and my sister had asked us to order before we leave to be melted.

Anyway, today was fun and it is getting late, so I am heading to bed. Goodnight!

Have you ever went out running at 11 p.m.?

I had. Today, my very first sort of out of the blue moved. My Big (a sister at sorority) and I went out to grab for an ice-cream at 9 p.m. She initiated the meeting and asked if an ice-cream shop would be okay. Well, she probably forgot that I don’t eat dairy, but I didn’t want to be difficult about not wanting to eat ice-cream, because I can, but just do not choose to eat. I reasoned that putting other people wishes above mine is a good thing to do and eating an ice-cream and enjoying her company is okay to have once in awhile. I, sometimes, eat a piece of cake, which has dairy in it and I was fine, so I reasoned that a cup of ice-cream wouldn’t be all that bad and she was being kind to ask to hang-out tonight. So, I said, “Yes! I wouldn’t mind at all!”

Well, at the ice-cream shop, we had a pretty good conversation. It was mostly her talking because I enjoyed listening. Anyway, she told me interesting story about her and her boyfriend. That’s was cool. My Big is a really nice girl.

After the meeting ended, I drove home, turned on the K-LOVE (a Christian radio station) and listened to Christian and some Christmas musics. It was so great!

I came back to my dorm, sat, looked over my phone, and started to realized that I felt sluggish, tight, and kind of fat. I know, you might think that I must be crazy! How could a bowl of ice-cream that I didn’t even finish made me feel fat. Well, it sort of did. I felt tight as if my stomach was in shocked and couldn’t digest the ice-cream well. I felt weird inside my stomach and felt like wanting it to come out.

After feeling sort of ill, I decided to go for a run, so I can burn off the calories and potentially feel better. So I did, and went out for a jog. It was 41 degree Fahrenheit outside. I wore enough layers that I didn’t feel as cold, but my hand and face were naked, without any fabric covering them, so it was chilly there, but other than that I simply kept jogging, which I hadn’t done it in a long time~

I ran while listened to my Beats headphone at the same time, but I soon realized how unwilling it was to run against the cold wind. I ran for a good 4 minutes, then stop, remembered thinking to myself how hard it was. My throat started hurting as I continued running against the cold wind. I thought to myself, this isn’t as easy, which I sort of had anticipated. I ran once again, and then stopped, then ran and stoped. I did this running and stopping for about three times, because my throat was hurting. After that I saw a white university truck, which I had this movie running though my mind about being kidnapped, so I ran away from the truck. After that I started seeing the light, so I thought that I will run to that light ahead, make a U-turn and then back to my dorm. So, I decided to simply run toward the night light on the side walk. I was determined, but then I started to see the white university truck again and it was parked next to my night light, so I thought, what even! I quickly turned around and head the opposite direction. Forget about the light, I am heading back to my dorm this time.

So I quickly ran, which by now my body had already gotten the rhythm of me trying to exercise, so I was okay and just kept on running without having to stop because of my throat. I ran and ran, until I started to detect a car light behind me, which was a Lexus that passed me, so I was relieved. I then detected another vehicle light, this time it was the white truck, so I just ran. When I saw it moving in an opposite direction from me, so I was feeling okay.

I finally made it back to my dorm and I started to realized that I did not have my key to open my dorm, so I was worried once again.

I made a call to the CA and someone picked up. When he met me, I knew that he wasn’t that happy because I might could as well be woken him up in the middle of the night form a sweet dream because it was 12 in the morning.

Anyway, I made it back into my dorm, took a shower, and now am writing a blog about the kind of crazy story that just happened and I need to go to sleep now. Adios.

What’s Mindfulness and Ego?

I just had a talked with a, about to be resigned, professor who if he were not to retire, would have been my professor to intro to computer science class, next semester. However, he told me that his wife is ill, therefore, he needs to spend this time together and potentially travel to Spain with their two daughters. He was a person whom told me about this term “mindfulness.” It is a term I have heard of before, but did not put in much thought to it. He also mentioned the word, “ego.”

Professor Benitez Noe has all grey hair, not that much wriggle, and a great smile and teeth. If I had to guessed his age, he might be well around, about 65-68 years of age, taking into context that he would still be teaching. He got his doctorate at the University of Purdue, a pretty well known university and the Purdue.owl website, is the website, in which, I used to do a better citation.

Anyway, I don’t know what the Bible tells me about these terms, mindfulness and ego. If I searched, it would be interested to see these terms in the Bible.

Now, that Dr. Benitez mentioned the term, ego, I am starting to question myself that I might have had experienced this term before. I simply didn’t know that it has a term in itself. I wonder if ego and pride correlates. I, for sure, knew that pride is something I have experienced with and still am praying about it. I know that Jesus has been working within me about pride because I had been feeling really good recently and meeting people is not wrenchingly uncomfortable.

This is certainly interesting to me. Perhaps, one of the reason why I didn’t get an A in genetics was part due to myself, referring to my ego. I didn’t put in my best work for this class and I should have waited to take this class later in the year. I approached it incorrectly when my background in biology isn’t quite solid, rather my studying skills isn’t quite solid either.

Anyway, I learn something today and should might as well be celebrated for and talking to Dr. Benitez was certainly interesting. He seems wise.

From now, I will continue to hold on to Jesus and ask for his direction. I will still be praying about my sins and trusting in Him to work on those. This is certainly a fascinating day, having conversation with people and learning about their experience is treasure.

I love and thank you, Jesus for this opportunity. I learned about the words ego and mindfulness was intriguing. I will look into them more. Is it in God’s plan for me to look into this?

What do you do when you couldn’t fallen asleep after an hour has passed by…

To finish the title…. is to write a blog. I have had an unhealthy, irregular bedtime routine. I simply do not go to bed on time and when I decided on going, I simply could not fall asleep right away in the manner that I was used to in the past. It was absolutely not enjoyable and frustrating.

In my last previous blog, I posted about my final exam and today was actually my last day of final, which means that my winter break is now off to an interesting start.

I was sort of dreading about the genetics test for sometimes, but I prayed about my worries and realizing that I am in God’s hand. I shouldn’t be too worry because he sees more than I do. If I were meant to head on in the direction that I am aiming towards then if he sees that it’s good then he will supports me.

I also realized that getting an A is not everything. I certainly feel good maintaining it, but even if I don’t then I shouldn’t stressed over it because getting an A shouldn’t be where I seek contentment. I must learned to be okay with not having an A and instead shifting my focus away from getting an A to doing my best and trying to enjoy the subject. I realized that focusing on getting an A created pressure and dis-contentment of the learning process and if I enjoy what I do, the job will be more willing than being force.

One thing from college is to learn about the “subjects” (school work, etc.), but also self. I learn from some of the mistakes that rooted in the mindset, therefore produces action leading to the consequence.

I have to say that I couldn’t have thought about this on my own, but from Jesus. He gave me wisdom and understanding that I couldn’t possibly found with my own conclusion. On my own, I would have dreaded about not getting an A in a class and potentially pouring negative thoughts to myself, saying that it was my own fault in not trying enough or studying enough.

This battle or learning experience taught me about mindset. If I were to begin a task with a better intention, an intention that ROCKS then the product regardless of the outcome should not be too disappointing because I, at least, started of with a good mindset and work from it without any thinking ahead or expectations.

So, I ate at a Thai restaurant today and I think my system has been in shocked because my stomach found it hard to digest the food. I am sort of getting weird feeling about it, causing me to conclude that I probably will not be going back there. I don’t know. I have been against putting hot food in a Styrofoam container as I believe (without having done the research myself, but simply heard that it is actually produce unseen chemical that the body shouldn’t be getting) that it is bad for the body.

Anyway, I really do hope I can fall asleep now. My body feels tire, but my mind will not stop thinking. It keeps on going. I really need to have a better discipline and it should starts with going to bed and getting up on time even on the weekends, even when it is least expected. This should be the routine that need to be put to practice. A daily routine that needs more attention and seriousness really do needs to be done. As my daddy always told me, and the Bible says to honor your parents, to go to sleep between 9 pm-2 am, I should honor his request or should I say multiple warnings.

Today, I met my friend, Shan, we went to eat at the Thai restaurant together and as she was dropping me back to my dorm, I asked her would she drive back home for six hours and her answer was yes, she would when she was at my age, but now, her body has changed. She told me that she can detected the difference in how she is feeling now versus five years ago, when she was 20. I was surprise by her statement because I thought that people probably feel older when they are in their 30s, but Shan will be 25!

Shan’s comment left me wondering about aging and how it is important to take care of the body and spirit, which going to bed at 4 certainly is not doing its favor as it needs restoration. I probably am getting wriggles that my mom is spending money on creams and moisturizers to make them disappear while my dad uses simply coconut oil. I have to say probably not directly to my mom, but I think my dad’s coconut oil seems to work better than her expensive Lancome or Estee Lauder products. The skin at his age is simply great! My dad looks 40 something when he’s in his late 50s.

I should now, do my body some favor and try to once again fall asleep, because I’m tire and feeling sorry for my body as it truly needs rest and a better habit from its owner.

 

Boi, it’s coming almost to the end..of the 1st semester in college

3 days counting from today will marked the end of my first semester of my sophomore year in college. Boiiii. Wow. It’s bitter sweet. The sweet part is that will be able to start the next semester new and fresh. The bitter part is the uncertainly of the grade I will be making for classes this semester. I have to say that the performance is certainly not my best, but failure will truly be a failure if they aren’t learned. Ummm, I don’t know if this saying is true, or does it simply meant to make me feel a little better about the disappointment, to make a negative experience seems a little positive. Oh well, it works, at least I can think positively and improve…h-o-p-e-f-u-l-l-y. Anyway, I have been making a 4.0 since the beginning of college, and I am a tiny bit worry (I try not to worry as God has a plan for me and tomorrow has the worry in itself and I should not be focusing on the now as much as I do for the eternal) because I still have a chance to make an A in genetics if I score an A on this final, which if the “what ifs…” stuff kept creeping into my thought then I probably won’t be doing as well. Ugh. Just do your best and don’t add the worries because it is not helping that much. Just try your best. Try your best. Anyway, this genetics class, I enjoy more of it now than in the beginning of the class, for sure. It was a doable sort of class for me to make an A in, since the beginning. What was holding me back then was absolutely very little except ME. It was doable, I know I can make an A in this class. Not that genetics isn’t difficult, it certainly can be, if I didn’t study. I was a sloth back then, not alert and wasn’t serious on my studying and understanding the material enough. Anyway, it wasn’t like AP physics (in high school) where I didn’t really understand, genetics is something I can see myself understanding, making sense of it, and seeing the relevant. Boiii, is the expression I can say to myself now. Boiii, why didn’t you do it, sort of expression.

In reality, I still have a chance of making an A in genetics and in general chemistry. I’m writing this post on Sunday night at around 10:30 p.m. I will take a stats final tomorrow (Monday), gen chem on Tuesday, and genetics on Wednesday, and after that is the “Winter Break Begins,” dashing through the snow~

It will be dashing through the ditch, if I were to have the self doubt moment that in the back of my head and sort of unconsciously, not willing to try and do my best then, I might be for real, may not like how I end this semester.

This is such a MIND Game, it is also how I make the decision, THINK, and ACT upon.

Let’s do the best that you can and we’ll see how it’s going to be finished. I hope to hear a good news. Help me, Lord.

Trying to decide on what to major

What a decision to make when it comes to deciding on what to major in college. If all jobs in the world pay the same, which of course is not the reality, then I probably would love to learn how to make metal jewelry such as earring, necklaces, and bracelets. However, I do consider a factor in what the world needs, meaning what degree I choose to pursue in college will most likely land me a job after graduation, because for me, going to college is to eventually get a job, potentially a career. I sort of certain that I wanted to go to a med school, but not all pre-med will be accepted, therefore, I think it will be a good idea to major in something that will hopefully be a return in investment spent on college and eventually assist with the future.

I am was sort of interested in a degree in nutrition, however, I was reluctant to declare it for a major because there is not a high demand for a dietician in the market per say. I was also interested in graphic design or web design, however, people said that this skill can be self-taught, and a college degree is not require necessarily. I was also interested in  biology, however, I am pre-med and I am already taking quite a bit of biology courses in a sense, and therefore, I think I can hold on to taking classes that I am interested in such as immunology, virology, histology, microbiology, etc in medical school or maybe buy a textbook and read about it instead, which highly may not happen unless I strongly feel about reading them 🙂

Life is structure and specialize. Even a college major is (mostly) limited to pursuing one thing head on and not in pursuing multiple tasks. Well not all human desires and interests are structure, some people have multiple interests, which most do, but they will still be limited to choosing mostly a particular degree.

Over the Thanksgiving break, my dad and I had a talk about my undecided college major, which I should soon decide on, eventually, because I am already a sophomore in college. He was talking about how our world still revolves around money, as long as we use this media of exchange and measure value, therefore a degree in business should be worth it, right? I am not sure about that, I have no idea enough to say whether or not a degree in business would land me a good, happy job.

My dream job,  I think, is to become a medical doctor, but in life, there is also “the what if” such didn’t work out then I should have a back up plan. I would love to wake up and do the work I enjoy doing and I think that’s surgery. It involves working with tools and very much hands-on, which has always been something I enjoy! I love playing tennis, table tennis, badminton. Do you see the correlation? All of which involve an instrument and that’s why I am quite positive that my dream job is to be a surgeon.

Aside from my ultimate goal, I think that being an accountant would allow me to perhaps work in a bigger cities and hopefully have some autonomy working in an office and dealing with numbers, which will be quite repetitious. I actually do not mind, I think, working in an office and doing my own thing as an accountant. I will get to wear a suit, perhaps, dress “professionally” and live preferably in a bigger cities doing fun, city stuff.

I don’t know… wherever I ended up is ultimately in God’s hand. But He being a just, free, and loving God, he does allow for me to make a decision and will support me if he sees that it’s good.

I know for sure that whatever I do that I must do so to glorify Him, which will in turn, also bring me joy and happiness.

Form now on, I simply wanted to do and be involve in the things I enjoy, I will never stop believing in Jesus and seeking Him, but I will also will search for thing that I have interest in while in college doing this undergrad.

One thing became apparent to me that I am no longer interested in the sorority, I am still part of. Ironically, today was actually the day, I got initiated to be an active member. I even got a charm in Greek letters emblemed in the our sorority’s name; however, I haven’t told anyone about deciding to not be part of it next semester.

I did enjoy my time there a lot. It was God’s plan for me to be part of it in order for me to grow closer to Him, which I did, felt it, and knew it. However, I will still be praying to Jesus whether it is in his plan for me to become inactive and not merely my own decision.

If I were to decide to be inactive, I will defiantly need to be in touch with a church, so that I can still have a Christian community that help me grow in Him continually.

Next semester though, I definitely wanted to take a metal smithing course, which is a brand new art course at my college.

Along with that, I might decided to major in accounting. I also wanted to learn about stocks. I am not sure if stock will be cover in my accounting course.

Yeah, I think, accounting will be a useful major to pursue and I have an enough interest to learn about them. I don’t hate number and certainly the autonomy in the job.

To end this, I wanted to thank God each and everyday I am living and pursuing him. My life has been more meaningful and together because of Him. I was able to be a better self because of him in my life.

Another Day To Be Praised

I have had 2 great days in a row and it was all because of Jesus, the Holy Spirit, and God.

People often say that God will grant us happiness when we walk with him and that he will satisfy, fulfill, and reward us for a walk with him. I remembered praying about wanting to experience the journey with Him, and the past two days has been amazing, and I cannot wait for more of his plans. I have been praying to him about wanting to love people just as he would want me to love them. I also asked him for direction and guidance of how to love his people, his creation.

I have also been praying to him about my pridefulness and because I got a lot of those going on and it is causing me to be unable to connect with people and to view them just as broken as I am. I want God to show me how to love people, to be kind and gentle. I want to view people according to how God would want me to see them.

I also been praying for my action to reflect Him, so that when people see me, they can ask me why I am this or that way, then I can point and credit God and to tell them that it is because of Him I am this way and that without him I am super broken and unstable in all of my ways.

I want to be God’s good representation, to be the little light house on the hill for the broken, the lost to see, and once they arrive, I will welcome them and tell them about the one who built this house, the one who furnished the floor and ceiling. That this light house was a wreak, but because of God, this light house is under going a lifetime improvement and is waiting until the day that the builder return to proclaim his great name!

How uncoincidental is God’s work. I’ve been praying to him about wanting to love people according to Him. I am on a plan (devotional) on my Bible App about Love Like Jesus. And just a couple of minutes ago as I was opening my Instagram and the feature image popped up about “Love one another,” just according to my prayer to Christ. I am in awe and amaze of God’s work and timing. Thank you, Jesus.

Delicious Lunch

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Another praises adding to this is what a delicious lunch I had today! I warmed up my leftover burrito bowl I bought yesterday from the Market at Stangel/Murdough student residential hall. I do not have leftover because I finish all my food most of time time, unless I am in a hurry or the food was too much. The reason for my leftover was the ladder. In addition to my leftover burrito bowl, I decided to make scrabble eggs to go with it, which tasted great. I found out about adding milk (I use almond milk) to my eggs made them soft and fluffy just as how I liked them. I remebered thinking how this lunch tasted great, was more delicious and special, which I thanked him more.

I also had a great time listening to lectures in my sociology and genetics class. At the end of my sociology lecture, I decided to tell Dr. Koch how entertaining his lecture was today (as the talk made me smile and I had great time listening to his stories), which I also thanked God more.