God Never Fails

You have no idea that I was disappointed when I found out that I had missed a chemistry lab final that I had a 94 in the class, but since I had missed the lab final and if I couldn’t take it then I would end up with a C in the class, which is not a failing grade, however, since I had an A (before the final), it would be disappointed because I tried to get good grade in the lab.

With the hope to improve the situation, I went to the professor’s office, however, she wasn’t there at the time, so I simply waited on her at a chemistry tutoring room next door to her office. It wasn’t long until I saw her in the hallway. She seemed to be in a rush, which I didn’t knew at the time I approached her that she was on her way to the bathroom before I stopped her to discuss my situation. She quickly told me to email her with my student ID and my chemistry lab section number in order for her to open to lab final for me to complete. However, she also told me that whatever I’lll make on the lab final will be 50% off of what I get, which means that even if I scored a 100 (which is not simply to score) that I will instead get a 50. This condition is the consequence of having not taken the final on time. This made me sad and disappointed, because I had a 94 in the lab, which means that I could potentially ended up in the class with an A, however, even if I scored a 100 on the final it will scored as 50 in the grade book, which means I will get a B in the lab.

I was sad and was a tiny bit annoyed at myself for having missed the final, however, I told myself that it is okay because no matter what God got me and He has a plan. That whatever I am going through, it will work out. Even though, I messed up, but my God is greater, bigger, better, and stronger than anything I am going through. And that it will work out at the end because He is God.

So, I decided to emailed Dr. T. my ID and lab section with an added description about 3 paragraphs long of why I care and if she would be willing to help me and not take 50% off of the grade that I will make on the final.

I received her email later in the day that only said “the final has been reopen for you and that you have until 9 p.m. tonight to submit it.” I was sort of expressionless because I had hoped that she would mentioned something along the line of “I will consider.”  She told me that she had sent 2 emails, which I did opened, but did not read throughly. Notice the underlined word, “NO EXCEPTIONS.”

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Anyway, I went ahead and took the final (which is online, but it is not easy) with a help of a friend I had never met, except through a group me, which is an app where students help other students with reminders, group study, reviews, etc. Dylan, a guy whom I texted to help me with the final replied saying that he could help me. I was so thankful and most of all to my God.  So, Dylan whom scored 92 himself and helped 2 other people scored an 88 was being so kind to help me.

So, after I finished taking my final with Dylan. I thanked him from the bottom of my heart, saying how much I truly appreciate his help. He replied saying that he wasn’t that much of an effort, but ohh.. trust me, I am so thrilled. This made me realized that he is really kind.

After we departed, I went to have dinner with a friend, workout afterward, and my day pretty much ended.

Last night, my prayers were also for the chemistry lab grade that hopefully I could get an A, however, I also added that God knows.

Until today, as I am typing, I went on blackboard, which is a site where my grades are posted and I saw …Screen Shot 2018-05-13 at 1.38.00 PM

I was so thrilled that a 94 had gone down 2 points to a 92, which may or may not be rounded to a 93, but it hardly matters because 90-100 is an A! I realized that Dr. T did not take off 50% of the final grade that I made! Which is a miracle that only God can performed and provided! Throughout my walk with Him, God has continuously shown himself to me in a way that I knew were from Him. God is so good and is always there for me that no matter the result, I know that He is God, who truly got me and even if I got a B in the course, I remembered thinking this to myself that even if I got a B in the lab that God has a plan, and He knows best.

This particular event reminded me of a story of Peter (if I had remembered the story correctly) when Jesus made him walked on water, but then Peter started to have doubts, which made him fallen and about to drown. At that moment, God is working with Peter, performing a miracle with Him, but Peter lost sight and started doubting God, so as a result he drowned. The story goes something along this line if I had remembered it correctly. But the point of referring to this story is a reminder to myself to trust in God, which means to realized that He knows. God is omniscient, omnipresent, and omnipotent (all knowing, always there, and all powerful). And to be humble that it is not me, but because of Him, of His grace, His wisdom, His power, and His love. 

This event happened and all I want is to praise God, to give Him the Glory for He is good, merciful, and just. I am so thankful to Him, so thankful. Praise be to God.

Boi, it’s coming almost to the end..of the 1st semester in college

3 days counting from today will marked the end of my first semester of my sophomore year in college. Boiiii. Wow. It’s bitter sweet. The sweet part is that will be able to start the next semester new and fresh. The bitter part is the uncertainly of the grade I will be making for classes this semester. I have to say that the performance is certainly not my best, but failure will truly be a failure if they aren’t learned. Ummm, I don’t know if this saying is true, or does it simply meant to make me feel a little better about the disappointment, to make a negative experience seems a little positive. Oh well, it works, at least I can think positively and improve…h-o-p-e-f-u-l-l-y. Anyway, I have been making a 4.0 since the beginning of college, and I am a tiny bit worry (I try not to worry as God has a plan for me and tomorrow has the worry in itself and I should not be focusing on the now as much as I do for the eternal) because I still have a chance to make an A in genetics if I score an A on this final, which if the “what ifs…” stuff kept creeping into my thought then I probably won’t be doing as well. Ugh. Just do your best and don’t add the worries because it is not helping that much. Just try your best. Try your best. Anyway, this genetics class, I enjoy more of it now than in the beginning of the class, for sure. It was a doable sort of class for me to make an A in, since the beginning. What was holding me back then was absolutely very little except ME. It was doable, I know I can make an A in this class. Not that genetics isn’t difficult, it certainly can be, if I didn’t study. I was a sloth back then, not alert and wasn’t serious on my studying and understanding the material enough. Anyway, it wasn’t like AP physics (in high school) where I didn’t really understand, genetics is something I can see myself understanding, making sense of it, and seeing the relevant. Boiii, is the expression I can say to myself now. Boiii, why didn’t you do it, sort of expression.

In reality, I still have a chance of making an A in genetics and in general chemistry. I’m writing this post on Sunday night at around 10:30 p.m. I will take a stats final tomorrow (Monday), gen chem on Tuesday, and genetics on Wednesday, and after that is the “Winter Break Begins,” dashing through the snow~

It will be dashing through the ditch, if I were to have the self doubt moment that in the back of my head and sort of unconsciously, not willing to try and do my best then, I might be for real, may not like how I end this semester.

This is such a MIND Game, it is also how I make the decision, THINK, and ACT upon.

Let’s do the best that you can and we’ll see how it’s going to be finished. I hope to hear a good news. Help me, Lord.