God, where are you going with this?

So, where should I begin this. I might have met a person who I felt good about meeting. Although, I am at first I was wondering about where is God wants me in this? I met a guy, who I thought is adorable. He’s nice and cute. Why am I thinking as if most girls would say this when they met someone. It’s such as common phrase.

I met him at a tutoring center in college. We happened to need help with the same physics class we are taking. I remembered that I talked to him first. I asked in the air, “Are you guys doing physics?. Something along this line, then he replied. I couldn’t recall vividly what he said, but yeah, that how we met.

We met again in the same week when I went to see the Blade Runner that on show at our college’s theater. I recognize his back and when the movie ended, we said hi, and talked about “Did you finish your homework in physics?” I said “No.”

One thing about him though, whenever he was about to leave, he would always said, good luck with physics, or good luck with whatever I was doing at the time. I thought that was nice.

We met again at our physics SI, which is sort like a peer-led tutoring. I was just talking to him casually and when the SI ended he went out with someone he knew.

I honestly did not think much about any of this situation, from the beginning to the SI. I just thought that he was a nice person. I can feel the vibe. He would smiled.

So, this time is when me met again at another of our SI session, this time he sat next to me and I helped him with the stuff we went over at the end of the SI. He complimented that I should be his physics teacher. I was just happy that I was able to help him understand this hard subject. Then, we walked out together and talked for almost an hour, until I had to depart to get help with chemistry 2 lab. Oh, I forgot, we decided to exchange number.

We texted a bit and then more and more. He would tell me funny and interesting stuff about his roommate named Derek. It was funny and I laughed at how he had to go through all of those situations.

One thing that I did not know enough about him is his place in Christ. He have gone to church, however, he has not been going to church while he is in college. I would have to say that I was not a regular Sunday church attendy either last semester, but it is definitely my priority every Sunday this semester.

I will be continually to pray to my Creator about where is he going with this. God will always and will be my desired priority in life because he is the source of living water, causing us to not be thirsty if I get the water from Him.

My prayer to this is that, he will guide me to show His love towards him and that God will used me to show him, His love. I prayed that I will have a sensitive ear and spirit of what the Holy Spirit and God are telling me. I pray for courage to be a faithful representer of Christ, to be the disciple leading others to the lighthouse.

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Skate and Friend are FUN

Since I was young, about 6 or 7 years of age, I remembered enjoying rollerskating around the house. It was fun, fast, and required balance.

Today, I went to skate with my sister, who does not really wanted to skate, but she was willing to along side with me. She knows how much I enjoy skating for fun.

The feeling of moving the legs, the farther the feet push against the ground, the faster I move. The feeling of the air brushing through my face. The tightened of my calves in order to move forward and my arms going back and forth to achieve the desire balance, speed, and position. The experience was grand!

Last time I was skating, I got to meet a group of boys that skated really well! They were smooth, fast, and furious (like the title of a movie, Fast and Furious). They made skating looks easy and appealing. They could skate backward and done interesting tricks. They absolutely love to stop abruptly to startle their friends and also love to play tag, you’re it!

So I got a hold of one of the boys in the group, after realizing that he was not a boy, but a young adult because he was three years older than I was. I asked him if he could teach me how to skate backward. He sort of trying to teach me how to do so, but it was actually a 7 years old boy, who could skate so well, that taught and offered me tricks on how to skate backward. He and his dad participated, but I did not achieve the move fully, but was beginning to learn so. It was a good start to my new skating-moves. I would have to say that I had actually improved my backward skating move today. I was sort of understanding about the move, but what I learned today was not to think too deeply about the motion because it made me moved stiffly, but rather to simply not look at my feet and as Nike says, “Just Do It.” So that was what I did, I just do it and the result was better! If I had a chance to skate again, I definitely wanted to improve my speed; I wanted to skate backward faster, because it is where the fun behold! I also will wear something more comfortable. I was wearing a thermal legging underneath my jeans and it was absolutely not the most comfortable to skate wearing such. I preferred wearing a good knee pads, gym shorts, and sport t-shirt while skating.

One highlight of the day was that I met a little girl named Angel and her mom, who has a nickname called Red. Red told me that she did not like the color red even though, some people called her so. I don’t remember how she acquired the name, Red, but it was certainly an interesting name. Angle, on the other hand, is as sweet and nice as her name suggested. She was friendly and helpful as she was trying to make sure I would not fall, even though, she had fallen more than three times herself, while I only fallen once. Oh, little Angel. She was so talkative and gave my sister and I a group hug before Skate World closes.

Another interesting occasion also happened at Skate World today. Even before the winter break started, I had applied to numerous jobs to work at my hometown. I applied for opening positions at a nearby groceries store, fast food restaurants, and to be a barista. I have not hear back from most of them, but for the ones that I wanted to work for such as a job to be a barista and a bagger at a grocery store, I was rejected on all of the positions at a groceries store and I think that I probably will not be getting a job as a barista either, considering the fact that I will only be working for two weeks if hired. The employers highly do not wanted to train someone who only will be working for two weeks!😆 So I think, this reasons heavily influenced why I was not offered a job 😓.

But guessed what! It is also likely that I will be getting a job soon because I went to Skate World today, not planing on getting a job there, but asked two of the employees who worked there, whether they are hiring tight now and both said, “Yes,” so I called the manager, gave him a genuine smile, and asked if he was hiring and he said the same thing and both employees told me. I told him about the 2 weeks working time frame and he was about to give me the results that other employers had previously told me, but I talked my way through until he told me to meet him tomorrow after 2 in the afternoon, and that’s when I knew, I could be getting a two week winter break job like I had hoped.

The only thing right now that would be holding me back from getting the soon to be, hopefully, funnest job I ever will have is that I might not be able to spend time with my lovely little sister, Gift. I love her so much. She makes me laugh. I can probably say that she is my best friend. I thank God for strengthen our relationship because we are getting closer to each other because of his blessings. Anyway, if I were to get this job, which hopefully will allows for me to skate as I had wanted because it is a job we are talking about here ultimately. The main reason why I was interested in the job primarily was that I could skate more; however, it might be such case. But, yeah, if I were to get this job, it would also mean that I will not spend much time with my sister or my dad. There are something that money cannot buy such as time and love. I will ask for God guidance, but I also feel like I sort of already knew the answer and I think that if I were to ask my dad, he would also tell me that it is okay not to work. My sister, on the opposite end, might supports my decision, but I can also see that she did not really want me to work either because she like having me around. It seems to me, right now, that I might not be able to have this job after all and it is not a guarantee that this job will allows for me to skate more either. I will probably be assisting customers and not skating as I wish. 🤔 So yeah.. too bad so sad, no spending money for this winter break. 😤

Before I went to Skate World, I also met up with my good high school friend, Tooba. We chatted at Starbucks, even though she arrived approximately 40 minutes late for our date. I was sort of a little frustrated at the time and considered leaving as I waited for her. I texted her wanting to say something intended to sound unappreciated about the situation, but I did not, because I thought about Jesus. I knew in my heart that Jesus will wanted me to turn the other cheeks. He reminded me of my own mistakes because I had been late in the past as well. He reminded me that we are not perfect, so when we met I greeted her with a hug. She apologized and I can saw how that she was sorry, so I dismissed the mistake. Tooba handed me a gift that she brought with her to  give to me. I was touched and was so glad that I decided on not leaving because that would affected our friendship and great conversations that we were to have. Before, I met Tooba, I had prayed that the Lord would lead the conversations and that he would allow me to be selfless and to have a nice, intimate conversations, that they would flow well, and the Lord saw that the requests were good, so he granted me a great time with my friend, Tooba amongst the aroma of coffee, people waiting for their drink at Starbucks. We had such a great time that I wanted to hangout some more, but we eventually went home because I did not want the drinks that her brother and my sister had asked us to order before we leave to be melted.

Anyway, today was fun and it is getting late, so I am heading to bed. Goodnight!

Another Day To Be Praised

I have had 2 great days in a row and it was all because of Jesus, the Holy Spirit, and God.

People often say that God will grant us happiness when we walk with him and that he will satisfy, fulfill, and reward us for a walk with him. I remembered praying about wanting to experience the journey with Him, and the past two days has been amazing, and I cannot wait for more of his plans. I have been praying to him about wanting to love people just as he would want me to love them. I also asked him for direction and guidance of how to love his people, his creation.

I have also been praying to him about my pridefulness and because I got a lot of those going on and it is causing me to be unable to connect with people and to view them just as broken as I am. I want God to show me how to love people, to be kind and gentle. I want to view people according to how God would want me to see them.

I also been praying for my action to reflect Him, so that when people see me, they can ask me why I am this or that way, then I can point and credit God and to tell them that it is because of Him I am this way and that without him I am super broken and unstable in all of my ways.

I want to be God’s good representation, to be the little light house on the hill for the broken, the lost to see, and once they arrive, I will welcome them and tell them about the one who built this house, the one who furnished the floor and ceiling. That this light house was a wreak, but because of God, this light house is under going a lifetime improvement and is waiting until the day that the builder return to proclaim his great name!

How uncoincidental is God’s work. I’ve been praying to him about wanting to love people according to Him. I am on a plan (devotional) on my Bible App about Love Like Jesus. And just a couple of minutes ago as I was opening my Instagram and the feature image popped up about “Love one another,” just according to my prayer to Christ. I am in awe and amaze of God’s work and timing. Thank you, Jesus.

Delicious Lunch

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Another praises adding to this is what a delicious lunch I had today! I warmed up my leftover burrito bowl I bought yesterday from the Market at Stangel/Murdough student residential hall. I do not have leftover because I finish all my food most of time time, unless I am in a hurry or the food was too much. The reason for my leftover was the ladder. In addition to my leftover burrito bowl, I decided to make scrabble eggs to go with it, which tasted great. I found out about adding milk (I use almond milk) to my eggs made them soft and fluffy just as how I liked them. I remebered thinking how this lunch tasted great, was more delicious and special, which I thanked him more.

I also had a great time listening to lectures in my sociology and genetics class. At the end of my sociology lecture, I decided to tell Dr. Koch how entertaining his lecture was today (as the talk made me smile and I had great time listening to his stories), which I also thanked God more.

 

A Day To Be Praised

Today is such a good day for me. It is 70 degree Fahrenheit outside and I am writing this on Tuesday Nov. 7, 2017. I typically do not enjoy cold weather, but today feels different, I actually don’t mind the cold.

I started of my day a little startled because I had a class to go, to take my 4th exam for my sociology class, at 11 am, but I had woken up at 10, which I told myself before I went to bed that I would wake up at 5:30 am to study. I looked at the time on my phone, which automatically adjusted for daylight saving, which shown 9 o’clock, so I breathed a little easier because of that.

I grabbed a banana, peeled it the correct way :P, and took a bite while also getting dressed. I realized that I need something warm because it was 40 degree something Farenheit outside this morning.

I then went to my kitchen where there is a little dining table in my apartment, so I sat and study for the remaining time while also ate a bowl of cereal for extra filling.

It was at 10:46 that I decided to packed my stuff and put them in my backpack, hopped on a bike, and rode to class. It was chilly outside as expected, but the cold didn’t bother me as much as I used to feel.

I got to my sociology class and was welcomed my the music of choice from my professor’s playlist. Dr. Koch opened his music before he began his lecture each morning, which created such a good atmosphere coming to class.

I sat at the very edge of the seating, I tended to avoid the middle seats and I also tend to pick to sit at the left side of the room. If you were to stand in the back of the lecture hall, you would be able to find me at the front to the middle row in the very left side of the room, which I suspected was where my brain felt most comfortable being.

I sat and looked over my note one last time before I take the test, but I was quickly distracted by Dr. Koch’s, all A’s, card trick that he often performed before we take the test on exam day. His card trick would always ended up flipping all 4 A’s cards as a sign for us to make an A on the test. This one particular card trick that he showed was by far my favorite, out of all the ones I have seen, maybe also because today was a great day in particular 🙂

Dr. Koch is an interesting lecturer, professor, and person. I have never met anyone like him before, which is of course, but his personally is quite distinct and will not be forgotten easily.

Now as I am typing my reflection, it doesn’t escaped my mind of why or how today has been particularly good because of the Father (God), Son (Jesus), and the Holy Spirit’s blessing and allowing me to feel good and contend.

This day reminding me of God’s grace that he has for me and reminding me of the conviction why I should continue to trust him, believe in him, and to place him first above all else, “moment by moment.” God is so good to me and his grace is immense and goes beyond my comprehension.

Dr. Charles Stanley

I have to confess that there has been time, actually recently (yesterday) that I planed on not attending chapter for Sigma Phi Lambda, which is a non-phanhellenic sorority and the greek letter translates to “Sister for the Lord.” Sigma Phi Lambda hold their chapter every Monday, which I attended regularly except one time in the beginning of the semester. Yesterday, which was Monday, I had planned on not attending chapter because I wanted to finished my homework. Well anyway, back track a little to yesterday when I came back to my apartment to make myself a lunch, which I made omelet, toast, and cut avocado. As I was eating, I opened YouTube and remembered that I wanted to hear one particular sermon from the Dr. Charles Stanley from InTouch Ministry, filmed at his church in Atlanta, Georgia. I found Dr. Stanley message about 2 months ago and I was hooked at how transforming his sermon impacted me. His sermon speaks to me and allows me to think and to be a better daughter to God. This one particular sermon was one of the many that Dr. Stanley preached. However, this particular one was the first video I saw of him, Taking Control of Our Thoughts– Dr. Charles Stanley, got me hooked. Dr. Charles Stanley is definitely my favorite pastor.

Anyway, so I had planned a week before that I will not attend chapter yesterday; however, chapter was a place not only to socialize with other Phi Lamb girls, but also an event that provide opportunity to sing praises and worship Christ and hear good testimony, teaching, and encouraging talks from the members. So, yesterday, as I was eating my lunch, I opened Dr. Charles video, Planning Without God – Dr. Charles Stanley. What I got out of his sermon changed my mind about not attending chapter. He mentioned that God cares about every aspect of our life and that it would be foolish not to ask for his direction and guidance when he would be glad for us to ask and to rely upon him. Dr. Charles’s message was so touching to me and it just made me happy that I can ask God about little things because knowing that he cares “about every aspect of my life” reassures and comforts me. It was just awesome that he cares so much for us than we could even care for ourselves, but we sometimes wanted to have our way, which Dr. Charles would say to be such a foolish act when God is omnipotent.

After finishing Dr. Charles’s sermon, I simply prayed to God about whether or not I should attend chapter and the answer was a loud, big, yes that I should and attending would be pleasing to God, to worship Him.

Another point that Dr. Charles’s mentioned was how important it is to LISTEN to God. To listen to what he wants us to do, act, think, or speak. God gave us the Holy Spirit that dwells on us and guides us. The Holy Spirit is a great Gift from God. I am so thankful for the Holy Spirit.

Chemistry SI Session Versus Chapter

On every Monday and Wednesday, are days that I also have an SI session for chemistry, which I found to be quite helpful for preparing for an exam. Attending my SI session on Wednesday is not a problem, since I am pretty much free on Wednesday. However, since my chapter starts at 7 and ends at about 8:15 pm, my SI session, on the the hands,  starts at 7:30, which has a timing conflict 😦 . Will it be an opportunity to sing praises and worship God or go to the SI session :/ Anyway, Sigma Phi Lamb also have a point system—going to each Phi Lamb event will earn a certain point(s), depending on the hour(s) of the event. The point system acts as a little incentive for girls to attend the activities and to meet the requirement to still be in Phi Lamb. The minimum is to make 20 points, which I has already completed. I can simply not attend any Phi Lamb event from now on and I will still be covered because I met the required points. However, it is more to it than that…

After realizing that I will go to chapter, I was rationalizing with myself that perhaps I can simply stay at chapter, sing a couple of worship songs, and then leave at 7:15 to make it in time for my SI session that starts at 7:30 pm. I was being so “cleaver” with this plan in trying to make my way around. However, as I was signing praises to God, I realized that being at chapter is more important than going to an SI session and it would pleases Him more than me trying to do my own thing for myself. I wanted to attend the session to make a better grade in chemistry, but God says that he has a plan for me, a plan to prosper me and not forsake me, something along this line, a verse in a bible. His plan for me will exceeds mine. The question is will I trust him. Will I trust him, to worship him and not attend the SI session. Will I trust him with my grades and beyond.

God shows me that if I am willing to trust him and to place him first above earthly things, he got me.

His Mercy & Power To Rescue

So I didn’t complete two of my homework, one for chemistry and the other from statistics, were past due dates, but somehow God’s power help me to go to both professor for each class, talked to them, and both of them were willing to extend the due date for me. God is greater than any of my worries or fears if I am willing to listen and obey his request.

I will be praying  that my faith and my trust in Jesus, God, and the Holy Spirit will continue to be strengthen, so that I can go out and to not be waver by the earthly perception, expectation, and ideas.

Other than a wonderful day, I thank him more.

Prayer

This occurred to me that when I am around other Christians, it was easy for me to feel belong and comfortable. However, I will be praying that beside being around other believers, my identity in Christ will be convicted within me, especially when I am among nonbelievers. That when I around nonbelievers, my identity in Christ will be where my heart rests and falls onto for guidance. That no matter where I am, who I talk to, sit next to, or listen to—-my identity in Christ will supersede because I am His. To act, to speak, and to think in a godly manner and that I would know who I am in Him. That will be my prayer that when I not around other believers that the Holy Spirit would guide my action and thinking and to be the little house on the hill 🛤.

I will still be praying for me to love people for they are God’s creation and that I will love them just as God also loves me and them. I wanted to be able to love people, nonbelievers and believers alike, just as God does.