What do you do when you couldn’t fallen asleep after an hour has passed by…

To finish the title…. is to write a blog. I have had an unhealthy, irregular bedtime routine. I simply do not go to bed on time and when I decided on going, I simply could not fall asleep right away in the manner that I was used to in the past. It was absolutely not enjoyable and frustrating.

In my last previous blog, I posted about my final exam and today was actually my last day of final, which means that my winter break is now off to an interesting start.

I was sort of dreading about the genetics test for sometimes, but I prayed about my worries and realizing that I am in God’s hand. I shouldn’t be too worry because he sees more than I do. If I were meant to head on in the direction that I am aiming towards then if he sees that it’s good then he will supports me.

I also realized that getting an A is not everything. I certainly feel good maintaining it, but even if I don’t then I shouldn’t stressed over it because getting an A shouldn’t be where I seek contentment. I must learned to be okay with not having an A and instead shifting my focus away from getting an A to doing my best and trying to enjoy the subject. I realized that focusing on getting an A created pressure and dis-contentment of the learning process and if I enjoy what I do, the job will be more willing than being force.

One thing from college is to learn about the “subjects” (school work, etc.), but also self. I learn from some of the mistakes that rooted in the mindset, therefore produces action leading to the consequence.

I have to say that I couldn’t have thought about this on my own, but from Jesus. He gave me wisdom and understanding that I couldn’t possibly found with my own conclusion. On my own, I would have dreaded about not getting an A in a class and potentially pouring negative thoughts to myself, saying that it was my own fault in not trying enough or studying enough.

This battle or learning experience taught me about mindset. If I were to begin a task with a better intention, an intention that ROCKS then the product regardless of the outcome should not be too disappointing because I, at least, started of with a good mindset and work from it without any thinking ahead or expectations.

So, I ate at a Thai restaurant today and I think my system has been in shocked because my stomach found it hard to digest the food. I am sort of getting weird feeling about it, causing me to conclude that I probably will not be going back there. I don’t know. I have been against putting hot food in a Styrofoam container as I believe (without having done the research myself, but simply heard that it is actually produce unseen chemical that the body shouldn’t be getting) that it is bad for the body.

Anyway, I really do hope I can fall asleep now. My body feels tire, but my mind will not stop thinking. It keeps on going. I really need to have a better discipline and it should starts with going to bed and getting up on time even on the weekends, even when it is least expected. This should be the routine that need to be put to practice. A daily routine that needs more attention and seriousness really do needs to be done. As my daddy always told me, and the Bible says to honor your parents, to go to sleep between 9 pm-2 am, I should honor his request or should I say multiple warnings.

Today, I met my friend, Shan, we went to eat at the Thai restaurant together and as she was dropping me back to my dorm, I asked her would she drive back home for six hours and her answer was yes, she would when she was at my age, but now, her body has changed. She told me that she can detected the difference in how she is feeling now versus five years ago, when she was 20. I was surprise by her statement because I thought that people probably feel older when they are in their 30s, but Shan will be 25!

Shan’s comment left me wondering about aging and how it is important to take care of the body and spirit, which going to bed at 4 certainly is not doing its favor as it needs restoration. I probably am getting wriggles that my mom is spending money on creams and moisturizers to make them disappear while my dad uses simply coconut oil. I have to say probably not directly to my mom, but I think my dad’s coconut oil seems to work better than her expensive Lancome or Estee Lauder products. The skin at his age is simply great! My dad looks 40 something when he’s in his late 50s.

I should now, do my body some favor and try to once again fall asleep, because I’m tire and feeling sorry for my body as it truly needs rest and a better habit from its owner.